My Obsession with Celebrity- Due to lack of real life

So I was listening to the radio the other day and... hmm I forgot what interested me- Or maybe it was everything. I am semi obsessed with celbrity gossip. I know, gossip is wrong. I try to avoid it- I rarely pay for it ( well I had a half a year of Us Weekly subscriptions bequethed to me once) and I am both repulsed and bored by my banal interest.

But sometimes when the 11 pm Office is over and TMZ comes on I watch it. TMZ is the worst too! Their hounding of celbrities is out of control. Why why why do I do it?

THEN - and this is worse- I will go on Perez Hilton and TMZ online and check out who has to say what... Sometimes I google to see if any of this is REAL news on the Times or Post etc...but I feel very very bad. I believe this obsession has only gotten worse as my real life has gotten more and more boring .

When I had a job, at least I had a career, though I had no love life, no travel, no excitement or plans ... Now with no job it is like - Why not live vicariously through others... The problem is that these are other people's lives who have not invited me in. Now at the movies, sure you can imagine your own adventure or in a book but watching or reading TMZ seems very wrong - I am ashamed of myself.

Of course if I go cold turkey, it is like fast food, the less you have of it the less you crave. So for December I am going on a celebrity free fast. I will not pay attention, will change the channel and will not go to websites that specialize in celebrity . Shut up Perez... I don't want to hear about the new car you need from the advertising... I got my own worries...